Stuck – I Hate My Body

In the past (this life and others), I hated my body.

But …

You might remember that I had some deep-seated fears rooted in a past life.

It wasn’t just about not feeling good enough—I felt defective. I felt I was wrong for who I was at my core.

I was an illegitimate Native American with a white father, punished by white settlers for my spiritual practices. They made me feel crazy for who I was and what I believed.

I felt powerless, feared the settlers’ judgment, and didn’t feel free to make my own choices. I people-pleased to survive.

At the same time, I envied those who were fully white, thinking life would be better if I were.

Ironically, in this life, my soul chose to be white with the purpose of teaching metaphysics. Before I discovered my Native American past life, I wished I had been born Indigenous so people would see me as more spiritual.

It’s funny how the soul picks different “the-grass-is-greener-on-the-other-side” scenarios to teach us to love and appreciate our current body, personality, culture, and life.

You are born imperfectly perfect.

My needs and challenges:

• #5 Freedom, aimed at dousing the Fear of Powerlessness.
• #4 Being Useful, overcoming the Fear of Authority and Judgment.
• #1 Respect, tackled through quashing the Fear of Inferiority.

You don’t need to know whether you were a princess or a pauper in your past life. Understanding your numerology challenges helps you recognize those reincarnated fears that have derailed you from your soul’s master plan.

Knowing my challenges and past life fears has been a game-changer in getting unstuck and moving ahead with my life purpose.

Check Out Your Challenges

Of course I looked to numerology and my other modalities to uncover the junk in my trunk and what was challenging me.

Do the calculations below, then look up below that to see what’s holding you back.

Your Challenges

#0: Being the Spiritual Dynamo

• Rare. You might feel like you have ultimate freedom but also lack a clear direction. This challenge invites you to consciously create your path, as no specific obstacle is guiding you. It’s both liberating and potentially overwhelming.

#1: Being the Self-Determined Innovator

• You may struggle with self-confidence, independence, or taking the lead. Your journey is about learning to assert yourself, stand strong in your individuality, and embrace leadership.

#2: Being the Sensitive Partner

• Sensitivity and relationships could be tricky for you. You might find it hard to cooperate or balance your emotions. The lesson here is to strengthen your emotional resilience and find harmony in giving and receiving love.

#3: Being the Joyful Creator

• Expressing yourself might not come easily. Whether it’s communication or creativity, you could face self-doubt. Your task is to find your voice and confidently share your ideas with the world.

#4: The Practical Organizer

• Authority figures, discipline and stability might be areas where you face obstacles. You may need to work on being more organized and reliable, learning patience and persistence along the way.

#5: The Sensory Adventurer

• You might struggle with the desire for freedom and change, sometimes leading to excess or restlessness. The key for you is to find a balance between adventure and responsibility without being impulsive.

#6: The Loving Nurturer

• Responsibility, especially in relationships and family, could be a challenge for you. You might need to learn how to nurture others without being overly controlling, finding balance in your personal connections.

#7: The Trusting Mystic

• Trust, introspection, or spiritual matters might be areas of difficulty. Your challenge is to develop faith in yourself and others, and to seek deeper understanding and wisdom.

#8: The Goal-Getter

• Power, control, or material success might be where you encounter challenges. You need to learn how to manage power wisely and balance your material and spiritual ambitions.

#9: The Giver

• You may find it hard to let go, especially when it comes to endings or taking on universal responsibilities. Your journey involves cultivating compassion, embracing closure, and focusing on the greater good.

These challenges are designed to help you grow and evolve, guiding you to become the best version of yourself.

Feel free to pull out your destiny detective magnifying glass with me in my upcoming “Your Soul’s Report Card” workshop via Zoom to dive deeper.

It’s all about conquering fears to attain a balanced, fulfilling life.