As I lay in the bathtub the morning after our wedding night, I try to decide what to do. I know appearances are everything to my family.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
When I finally emerge from the bathroom Charlie blurts out \u201cLet\u2019s go to a bull fight tomorrow!\u201d, interrupting my thoughts. I hold my breath and don\u2019t say no \u2013 again. The next day I nearly pass out seeing blood when the bullfighter immobilizes the bull with his spear.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Afraid of being proven right \u2013 that I am<\/em> unlovable \u2013 I\u2019m determined to avoid the emotional fallout of marital conflict at all costs. Each time I make the decision not to speak up and say what I want it compounds like interest over time onto my soul\u2019s karmic credit card debt.<\/p>\n\n\n Just like Mermaids are magical fantasies (that may be real somewhere), I fantasized getting married would magically create a loving home for me. <\/p>\n\n\n\n I had yet to figure out how to live my own life, let alone find my place in it.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n Finding your life purpose<\/em> also isn’t a magic potion that’ll wash all your problems down the drain. It’s crucial, yeah, but it’s just one piece of your whole existence.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Ask me how I know …<\/p>\n\n\n\n You’ve gotta deal with your own crap\u2014the stuff you’d rather bury than face head-on. Your soul’s mission? Turn that shit into fertilizer for your garden of life.<\/p>\n\n\n\n There\u2019s a reason I call life The Soul Reality Shit Show<\/em> \u2026 I help you own and laugh at your shit. Yeah, all that stuff you try to hide from yourself and the world.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I stumbled on metaphysics 5 years after crying myself to sleep in the bathtub on my wedding night. About another 5 years later, I discovered my life purpose but was too afraid to come out of the metaphysical closet and own my truth.<\/p>\n\n\n\n It took another couple of decades to be able to look and laugh at my own shit, let alone turn it into something meaningful (like this email), start sowing seeds, weed my garden (aka kick Narcissists out of my life), and consciously allow my garden to bloom.<\/p>\n\n\n Your Soul Plan<\/em> is like the guide you never knew you existed. It clues you in on your life’s lessons, helps you shake off energy-sapping resentments, and shares tips on how to discover your zone of genius.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Mindset is all about putting Debbie Downer thoughts in their place, backing yourself, and embracing the “sky’s the limit” vibe without toxic positivity. It’s not a quick fix or a one-size fits all charade.<\/p>\n\n\n\n You gotta be your own thought police so you don’t sabotage the good stuff. But 1st you’ve gotta identify what those negative thoughts are … Your Soul Plan<\/em> will tell you exactly what’s been holding you back … for multiple lives.<\/p>\n\n\n\n We’ve all got a mental playlist of not-so-great hits. 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